A techie gals reflections on faith and family.
Mustard seed like faith
  • My reflections

Fearless Meet Boring

11/27/2016

2 Comments

 
Picture

​In July, I blogged about my word for the year, fearless. In my earlier blog, I had a hard time accepting fearless as my word. Fearless...this is way too hard, I really like my comfort zone bubble.

I said, “Yes to fearless.”
Then,  “No to fearless, that is being reckless.”
But I ultimately said, “Yes to fearless. Choose joy, be fearless.”

I created "My Be Fearless List" or the list that I just knew was going to push me outside my comfort zone:
  1. Be adventurous. Travel by myself. Prove to myself I can navigate in a large city without my husband.
  2. Take more risks in my classroom, push the innovation envelope.
  3. Pursue another college degree.
  4. Blog. Practice my writing. Pursue my goal of writing a book.
  5. Start a new business venture.
As I was talking to my husband about my word fearless, he immediately asked, “How is that word working out for you?”

In my mind, my fearless year was going to be this big, brave year of me going outside my comfort zone, pursuing goals that necessarily aren’t in my skill set.

My year of fearless hasn’t started out with checking off items on my fearless list. However, my year of fearless has pushed me outside my comfort zone, to a life of simplicity. Ever since I can remember, I thrived on busyness. From teaching to coaching, to kids activities to professional organizations to meeting after meeting and in between all of these things, maintaining a house. I thrived on making it all work. I thrived on busyness.

I am quickly finding out this year, pushing me outside my comfort zone, is pursuing a “boring life” (if this make any sense), learning to be present. I am learning that being fearless is saying “No”. I am learning fearless is not being on every committee possible. I am learning being fearless is being home on quiet evening just relaxing. I am learning being fearless is letting go of the worry “my calendar has a free evening, how I am going to fill it.” My word, fearless, is showing me a world of simplicity, slowing down, and being present.

In my relentless pursuit of being fearless this year, my idea of fearless has changed. I am being pushed outside my comfort zone..but for the good. Fearless is making me “boring”. And, I am alright with that, because if boring means being present, my heart is full. As, Matthew 6:21 states, “For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”  

Being fearless is changing my heart. I am not giving up on my fearless list, however, God needed me to first realize the importance of being present. Yes, being fearless is changing my heart. 

2 Comments
Bev
11/27/2016 08:21:27 pm

I love this! I am reading (finally) Ann Voskamp's book "One Thousand Gifts". She emphasizes being present in the moment in order to fully live. God refers to Himself as I Am.... present tense. I am starting to "get it"... Living gratitude in the moment.

Reply
Ann
11/28/2016 03:54:32 pm

Hi Shelly,
What a great post! I love what you said about being present. I loved reading how what you originally imagined as fearless is leading to simplicity and that is leading to peace. We all need to slow down and and see life through that lens. The only thing we are guaranteed of is this present moment and our biggest treasure is how we spend that time! You are an inspiration!

Reply



Leave a Reply.

    Shelly

    God first, wife second, mother of 3, third. Someone who loves cinnamon bears, serving others, nachos, technology, and exercising.  

    Archives

    January 2018
    May 2017
    March 2017
    January 2017
    December 2016
    November 2016
    July 2016
    May 2016
    April 2016
    December 2015
    November 2015
    August 2015
    July 2015
    June 2015
    May 2015
    March 2015
    February 2015
    January 2015
    December 2014
    November 2014
    August 2014
    May 2014
    February 2014
    January 2014
    November 2013
    September 2013
    August 2013
    July 2013
    June 2013

    Categories

    All
    Faith

    RSS Feed

Powered by Create your own unique website with customizable templates.